Perfect Ideal vs. Reality

If there was one word to describe the current season I am in ‘busy’ would be the most fitting word.

The thing is I work and study, there is an ideal standard of what I would like and then there is reality. The difference between the two is one happens the other never happens you can take your pick, which one happens. I find myself asking very often ‘why work hard?’ ‘What is to gain?’ ‘Quitting would be so much simpler, so why not quit?’

So, here is the contrast of a normal day in Gwen’s life versus what she would like to happen...

Perfect Ideal day vs. Reality

	Perfect Ideal	Reality
5:30 am	wake up and jog	Sleeping
6:30 am	get ready for work	Sleeping... somehow got ready for work
7:45 am	at work	at work
4:00 pm	Finish work	Finish work
5:00 pm	Study	Sleep/lying on my bed/ study a bit
6:00 pm	Supper	Supper
8:00 pm	Study	Busy with something else/Study
10:00 pm	Study	Study
11:00 pm	Finish studying	Sleep/Still studying
12:00 am	Showered and in bed	Sleep/Sometimes still studying

How annoying is that the things in my Perfect and ideal world get done in my Reality but, they are muddled in with life. For instance 2 weeks ago I was sick I had a cold I managed to go to work but, the moment I got home all I could do was sleep. Then we have the few days that come and I have to be somewhere in the evening and there goes my 3hr ≥ study day.

Reality is real, but it is not excuse not to work around it we still need to get the important things done but, we also need to take it easy on ourselves once in a while. A good plan goes a long way but, wisdom accompanied with a plan and reality make for a great day.

Reality’s rude awakening

Last night I went to bed all amped up and inspired… “Tomorrow”, I said, “I will change the world”. I lay my head on the pillow of big dreams and wild hopes. Then at a lousy 6:30 am my alarm blared in my ear, tomorrow had arrived and I was not ready, I wanted more sleep, I wanted just another hour. I felt my slumber scream: “WE WANT MORE SLEEP!!!” and my slumber won. A 15 min snooze we got, see my dream of changing the world was not far but, it defiantly was not near.  What was near on the other hand was and is, is my pillow.

Greatness lingers with me throughout my day it follows me and it stares at me right before my sleep. I am consumed by it, I am it. I have come to learn that greatness is not a far-fetched Idea that you wish upon. Na, you make it happen, you decide every day to choose greatness and forfeit mundane and average. And to me, what is average? It would be to sit and do nothing with no purpose and no direction.

I am constantly amazed by what people are able to achieve with the little that they have to work with. I am constantly amazed by the joy that people have during the toughest of times. I am constantly amazed by the strength people carry when it looked like they were at the end of themselves yesterday. I am constantly amazed by the love people show after being deeply hurt. I am constantly amazed by life and from that I am inspired to Greatness.

Today with all that can be done and should be done I choose to keep my light shining. So, to my match we will find a candle and light it up. Whilst it burns, I will search for a lantern and let it lead me to a fire place; which will set my home alight. As I take a journey in the woods to place my lantern on a mountain to bring light to a city. This little light will shine.

So my journey I take one step at a time one moment at a time. Forgetting not the people around me, remembering to stop by the still quiet waters to take a drink and rest by the tree planted close by. I do not see the end insight yet I have faith that I will get to my mountain so here I am. Where am I going, bets me but, I will not stop walking, I can’t. So with my alarm blaring at me in the dawn of every morning, I accept the challenge to live; to go after the desires of my heart; to be beautiful; to be watchful of those journeying beside me; to notice the smell of the freshly cut grass; to sigh; to cry; to truly be human yet Great.